I've heard this before. Many times! I try vaguely to implement this philosophy in my life but, today, I think it might have clicked.
Now, I decided a long time ago that I wasn't going to hate anyone, anymore. I was probably 16 at the time. Why expend that kind of energy on someone that you can't stand? It makes no sense. Today I realized that, while I am successful in not hating a person, I continue to hate that persons actions or what I perceive their transgressions against me to be.
In other words, I don't hate Bobette, I hate the fact that I feel like s/he abandoned me and didn't help me in the way I wanted. That jerk! There are two people in my life that fall into this category. One more than the other. I have thought that I didn't care, but recently I realized that I am harboring some pretty strong emotions that are limiting me.
These limitations are now so strong, I can not ignore them. These feelings, which are like poison, have managed to manifest themselves in my life and make me sick!! I am considering not living up to my potential for fear of dealing with these people. How crazy is that?! All the while I know, at the core of my being, that these people did all that they knew how to do. Without those situations, I could not be in this moment right now. And my moments, my present state, is pretty awesome.
So, while driving and having my minor epiphany I told them that I love them. It's pretty freeing. The farther I am from that moment, the less exhilarating it feels to love someone, despite their actions, but it is still there.
"I love you Bobette. I wish you all the best. I love you."
Letting go is not the easiest trick in the book, but I think it might be one of the most worthwhile.
How's that for a Wednesday morning?
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